Miss You Rong

I have a friend who has already left this world. Today, as I scrolled through her QQ Zone, I suddenly missed her so much. On March 13, 2011, she wrote in a post: “Youth is brief yet blazing, singular and magnificent, like a shooting star that streaks across the sky of life in an instant. And yet the trace it leaves behind will be etched deeply into one’s life.” Her youth, her life, flashed across mine in that same way, and then I could no longer hold on to her. I can still hear her voice from the past, and I can still see photos and videos, but I can never again see her standing in front of me.

The last time we met was in a private hospital in Changsha. That day I had terrible menstrual cramps, and I was vomiting and having diarrhea. We had agreed that I would go to see her, but in the end it became her taking a taxi to come see me. We only met in haste, and I never imagined it would be our final goodbye. Rong, I miss you so much. I do not know whether there is another world. I cannot make sense of so many things. I must not have given you enough love. I might have been able to help you…

But there are no “if onlys.” Everything has already drifted into the past. You will live forever, eternally, in that stretch of time, but I can no longer touch you… I miss you so much.